Thursday, February 18, 2010

Blue Devils January Camp/ Call Back

January 15, 2010 - January 18, 2010
So I auditioned at Damien High School and was pretty much going in blind. I auditioned on Trombone and Baritone and did well, ok...not as good as last week with my Bluecoat auditions. I definitely was more nervous for my blue devil audition and was just hoping for the best. I made a few new friends but hung out with Henri Richardson most of the time. Henri and I both made call backs but he was asked to be in the corps by John Meehan right on the spot. CONGRATS! One guy, his name is Casey Searless is from Oklahoma and marched with the 2007 Broken Arrow High School, one of my favorite high school bands! He played sax but was really quite good at baritone. He didnt make call backs and i was kinda sad but life goes on, we still talk on facebook.
So Jan camp was quite an experience, i drove up with andrew and thomas in thomas’ truck...i was a long ride but was really funny. We got to pleasant hill a couple hours early so we just got our room and hung out a little and we went to the biggest Sports Authority i had ever seen. I got a new pair of UA gloves for practice. We got to the school where practice was held, right across the street from Diablo Valley College. The DVC field is almost exactly like my home field at RCC but there is no big tiger head in the middle, just a big yellow circle PERFECT for “circle drill”. Circle drill is an exercise where everyone stands about a two step interval around the circle and we basically expand and contract the circle and also rotate it. It really helps with keeping consistent intervals and step size along with good shoulders.
Throughout the camp we (the callbacks) were being watched by all the staff. A very terrifying feeling because they wouldn’t say or give any hints on how we were doing, which was very nerve racking. I felt i did great visually and really bad at the musical part, just really new to this euphonium thing and just wasn’t doing my best mostly because i am so used to sliding around on the trombone and being constricted to only three keys. I am really getting a hang of it now though and am getting a lot better. We always start out with music rehearsal and were given “Asphalt Cocktail” and WOW! Wayne Downey did a GREAT job on it, it sounded amazingly awesome, but a couple weeks later it was taken away, because they found out that 4 other corps were playing the same piece. LOL Next we did visual rehearsal which was really fun and everytime i learn something new. We did Breathing Gym exercises before we play, which is really important and helpful, and we also do a lot of stretches and its so relaxing and fun, the blue devil staff knows how to make it a great time. I like that a lot! Sunday, the last day of the camp, i still didn’t know if i was going to make it or not but i was pretty sure my music audition wrecked it for me. I didn’t find out until late sunday into music rehearsal. It was the most nervous and nerve racking experience I have ever went through, and finally it happened. John Meehan called me, Jeremy Fallis, and Sean O’Conner to go outside real quick. I dont really remember anything before that because i was so focused on trying to figure out if i made it or who didnt make it from other peoples facial expressions. We were called outside the door and here he came. He just flat out said, “Well,...... Congratulations, we would like to offer you a spot with the Concord Blue Devils for this 2010 season”. I was like WHAT?!?!? I was so shocked that all three of us made it, OMG i didnt know what to do. I shook Johns hand and said thank you... haahah how noobish..neways jeremy and i were like trying to regain focus and a straight face, but i couldn’t resist, it was so exciting, feeling that i accomplished what every marching band kids dream is...AMAZING!
I went back in was just like WOW! IM A BLUE DEVIL! such a cool feeling, along side of me was andrew and he didn’t the cut along with thomas on mellophone. It was definitely an awkward drive home ahah...
We ended the night performing everything we knew, with only the EXCEPTED corps members and wow what an awesome feeling. Ill post some pictures of this weekend right below.
As a conclusion, it was a GREAT weekend for me!

Saturday, January 23, 2010



She's HOTT



Can you say "IN LOVE FOREVER", I CAN!

anyways i just wanted to get that out there! ahhah

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

My Star

To my Little Flower,
When I look at you I don't just see a beautiful girl, I see MY angel.   The Light that I never thought would shine down on me.   Your eyes look at me full of love, and care, and hope.   I look at you, and see a true gift from god. An Angel. A Hero. My Hero. A Hero who saved me from the average joe lifestyle.   You give me confidence and strength.   You make me feel so complete and unbelievably happy, all of the time.   You guide me towards the light I have always dreamed of.   Love and Happiness are just two of many dreams i've always wanted in someone.   Thank God its YOU!   I honestly couldn't have asked for more. You care for me as much as i care for you.   Even though you may say you love me more, which isn't true btw =D   
I love you more.  <3   

Every moment, every second I spend with you, I never want it to end.   I feel like trapping us in a snow globe or some type of enclosure, where there is no escape.   Where we can be alone and together 100% of the time.   Making my time with you last forever and making you happy is one of my main goals in life.   I never want to go somewhere or miss the chance of having you be with me.   You are my perfect EVERYTHING!   No matter what you say, YOU ARE the most beautiful, sophisticated, intelligent woman I have ever met.   It truly is an awesome feeling knowing that I can give you my heart and my world.   I really am the luckiest man in the world.   At the age 19, I have found my one true soulmate.   My Angel, My Light, My Shooting Star, My Love, My Strength, My Pleasure, My Courage, My complete understanding of wanting to spend the rest of my life with someone special FOREVER.   The best thing is, her name is Aubrey Lauren Jakob, and she loves me as much as I love her.    
She's MINE. 
She truly made me become a man.

Nov. 8th 2008
was the start of my life.

A little poem i wrote before i went to bed last night.

My Shooting Star,
My Guiding Light,
My True Soulmate,
I Say Goodnight.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009




Tuesday, March 31, 2009

My Everything

My Everything
My Dream Girl
My Love
My Beloved
My Darling
My Soulmate
My Angel 
My Honey
My Binky
My Life
My Sweetheart
My Lover
My Girl
My Pumpkin
My Sillybutt
My Woman
My Girlfriend
My Future Wife
My Everything

She's Beautiful
She's Gorgeous
She's Intelligent
She's Elegant
She's Ravishing
She's Musical
She's Desirable
She's Sexy
She's HOT
She's Stunning
She's Strong

I love her...
Sense of Humor
Fascination of the Galaxy

I love the way she...
Holds me
Kisses me
Looks at me
Hugs me
Tells me that she LOVES ME
Answers the phone
Drives up to see me
Loves me
Cares for me
Talks about the World
I love that she knows who she is


Sunday, March 29, 2009


Didn't sleep till 3am. 
Woke up at 8:30am because my mother called.
Went  back to sleep.
Woke up at 10am to go to Off Target practice, i thought i was late but i was the first person there.
Practiced till 11:30am and worked on new songs.
Talked about where we want to record our demo.
Left and realized i had no gas.   
Put $20.00 in my tank at $2.21/gal. only got about 8 or so gallons. 
Went home, changed, did my hair, brushed my teeth, left for work at 1pm.
Got to work, sold about 3-4 ECP's, and an insole. YAY
helped people get what they needed and more, accomplished my daily goals in shoes and ECP's.
Texted Aubrey during work.
Had lunch at Del Taco, or ocat led.
Had a number 12?
It was goood.
Continued working.
Made my manager laugh and say good job.
Had a little kid ask what im doing 10-16 times.
The kid stole a zip tie.
Sold shoes to an indian guy who's leaving for India tomorrow.
Finished work.
Texted my love.
Drove home.
My parents are back from the river.
Im going to the river with aubrey and my parents next weekend!
Have to find someone to cover my saturday shift.
Realized my back left tire has two big cuts on the outside of it.
I want it to be PAYDAY already.
I Really Really Really Really missed Aubrey today.   =(
and now i get to go and talk to her so peacceeee.....

Saturday, March 28, 2009

How Hard Is It?

How hard is it really?
Sometimes I feel i cant do the simplest things or duties.
Is it because I am lazy?
Is it because I am careless?
Is it because I am too tired?
Is it because I just don't care?
Is it because I am forgetful?
Is it because I have no gas?
Is it because I have no money?
Is it because I am too hard on myself?

Its because I stay asleep too long, and always end up missing something by 10-15 minutes.   I have NEVER been like this before, why now?   Is it really that hard to wake up at a given time, no matter how much sleep you got the night before, and do something that has been planned for many weeks in advance.   I don't understand whats wrong with me, and when i do these kind of things, it really, really bugs me inside, i feel like a total ass, because I am, I feel like a total flake, because I am, I feel like an enormous bowl of guilt, was poured from above my head and instantly greeted with my shoulders and back and arms and finally to my legs, which makes me feel like i cant move, i cant do anything.    

Heck pour me into a bowl of guilt and shame, and call me 

Here is an analogy of what i feel about school this spring.

I feel like a cereal, called any of the names above, that has been poured into a bowl.   I fit inside, but once things get going, like making the cereal, "cereal", by adding in milk or "focus, responsibilities, devotion, bands"
My bowl becomes overfilled with stress and emotions, 
after sitting for a while, the little cereal pieces, 
whatever they may be, begin to absorb the milk, 
making everything bigger and more of a problem, 
and eventually it will all spill over, 
but this is where i can change things, 
i can eat my cereal, and take it one spoonful at a time, 
and enjoy it, or i could rebel and let it all spill out 
and become a bad,  soggy, bowl of cereal. 

Is it really that hard to just eat a bowl of cereal? 

While typing this, i SHOULD have been at a Jazz I gig in Riverside, something ive seriously wanted to do since high school, and now that i have the chance, 
im just going to go ahead and have the audacity to sleep in 
and miss my very first jazz festival with RCC, 
really dude, really?

How hard is it?